Not sure what to say,
What to do, who to speak to,
Where my mind was,
When, why, when,
A few months ago when I
Left my lifeline hanging out to dry
Left the kids there too,
Waiting for me to come back, I’m sure
I’m sure of it
Why, why, why,
For me, for myself, for my sanity
Is that selfish?
Am I a bad person for choosing me
Over a hundred people?
At what point does the number tip over?
When do the scales move in their direction?
Am I a bad person
For sacrificing education for health?
For leaving behind unfinished work?
For treading water afterwards?
For letting another take the reins,
Without full training or anything?
It is hard not to be a bad person
In your own mind