Looking over at my stack of business cards, my personal website, and my blog, I am amazed at what it is like to be a professional. Though I am not, by any means, a formally self-employed worker right now, a sort of successful vindication washes over me from seeing all the work I’ve put into improving this side of things. In the future, it would be smart to present my business card to potential employers, to direct them to my website and more. But whether I’ll have the courage to present myself so forwardly, well, the verdict is out on that one. I can always look back on this blog post years later with the hindsight to know what choice I ended up making.
More than anything, though, I am grateful to have spent time establishing who I am in a professional sense. While self-employed-but-not-really-employed, your personal and professional worlds can mesh together easily, if you’re not careful about separating them. You have to decide who you are while you are working and who you are while you are just enjoying life. You have to segment your schedule hour by hour, in order to not feel guilty about taking some time for yourself every once in awhile. You have to stay on top of your to-do list like it’s your closest lifeline to sanity. You have to monitor your identity, as well as your routines, habits, and proclivities. You shouldn’t separate your to-do list into personal and professional requirements, though if you really want to stress the differences, it could work.
Not knowing what I will be doing until the day of can be stressful at times, completely overwhelming at its worst. The unknown is out there, every day. It is an unpredictable world I enter in the morning and afternoon, and then evening comes, when everything returns to routine normalcy. I look forward to evenings during the week, and I look forward to mornings during the weekend. It’s important to have something to look forward to, regardless of what time it takes place.